Its been almost two years since I last cried my heart out like this..
I’m staring at my ceiling, thinking about nothing and feeling numb but tears continue to flow and my heart continues to beat fast and hard, like its going to leap out of my chest and get ripped right in front of me by an invisible hand.

This is how life tells me how dumb I have been and still am..

now im left with nothing..
My tears and my pain, its all my fault..

He doesn’t know that I start and end my day with the thought of him
He doesn’t know that I’m happy whenever I see him
He doesn’t know that I love the way his eyes smile every time he speaks
He doesn’t know that I’ll be the first one to cry because of his pain
He doesn’t know that my life revolves around him
He doesn’t know that he’s the reason I am

He doesn’t know that he made a girl’s heart cry last night..
He doesn’t know that the vagueness breaks my heart into pieces
He doesn’t know that I will have to cry for a long time to remove him from my system
He doesn’t know that I long for him despite my bitterness
he will never know..I will never let him knowHe will never know that I once loved him this much.. This is how life tells me how dumb I have been and still am..

just when i have figured out my wants and needs, thats when youwent aloof.. you're the one i want and need.. everythings just too vague, and that vagueness is killing me.. will i invest more or move on?!